Remember when Andy throws a tantrum in Wet Hot American Summer because he has to clean up his own mess? I was basically him after a year and a half into sobriety when I started moderating. I was contemplating why I ever stopped drinking in the first place and why I ever started drinking again: a mess of my own doing.
I also started to resemble Kurt Russell in The Thing, slowly decaying and watching myself isolate into a dismal abyss. To the outside world, I was devastatingly handsome and rugged, but utterly (a)lone wolf inside, a parasite eating me up (IFYKYK … and you didn’t I’m sorry).
Two years into the mess of moderation, I wanted to begin again. cue: crafting my sober escape plan.
🚀🎤🚀 Ms. Mac, 2016 🚀🎤🚀
“I remember the days when I could go a week without thinking about
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